Friday, July 22, 2005

Assorted Pictures

One of the joys of my life has been Rotary. I am a 3rd generation Rotarian, and first joined Rotary in around 1976, in South Bend, Indiana. I have been a Rotarian whenever I could, and the option of being able to visit other Rotary clubs around the world when traveling is one of the great dimensions of this fellowship.

In Lagos, we made native outfits out of a special cloth that had been designed during the year when the Rotary International President was a Nigerian. I knew him - he is from the northern part of the country. Here I am at the last Rotary meeting I attended before leaving Nigeria.









Before the long retrea, I gave in to my base curiosity and shaved my head. Nigerians thought it was terrific. I thought it looked pretty good myself, although I did have friends in the US who made comments about "World Wrestling Federation." I used the long retreat in Wales to re-grow my hair (have to do something whern you're not praying) but this is what I looked like as I started the retreat.

Wouldn't want to meet HIM in a dark alley late at night.







Here is a more elegant look - this is the picture that prompted the World Wrestling Federation comment. It also appears on the cover of "The Several Sides of Father John".

Women used to come over and rub the top of my head.

I miss that.

Thursday, July 21, 2005

Fr. John On Sale

FATHER JOHN ON SALE!!!

It occurs to me that not everyone who may drop in to visit this place already had my three (3!) CD’s. So this is to let you know that you can buy me and take me home. (As my sister said when I sent her the first albums, “How wonderful! Now I can turn you off.”)

If you want a preview, go to

Annball.com

which is a wonderful site anyway, run by a terrific and prolific author – and she has a section on me, and you can sample two or three of the songs from Sacred Songs. Buy one of her books while you’re there.

The three CD’s are:

Father John Sings Sacred Songs

The Several Sides of Father John

Father John LIVE in Concert


Each is $10 (including shipping) and can be ordered directly from me or from the Jesuit Office in New York Money goes to support the work of the Jesuits in Nigeria and Ghana. (Through me is probably easier, since I know I have copies of all three disks – I’m not sure New York does anymore.)

The first is the most popular – everyone likes the standards. Listed below are the selections on each disk:

FATHER JOHN SINGS SACRED SONGS
Amazing Grace
How Great Thou Art
Panis Angelicus (Franck)
Agnus Dei (Bizet)
Ave Maria (Schubert)
Ingemisco (Verdi)
Lord’s Prayer (Malotte)
Bless This House
I’ll Walk with God
O Holy Night
Sim Shalom (Janowski)
Amazing Grace (Yes, twice – my mother’s name was Grace)
The Impossible Dream
I Will Sing New Songs (Dvorak)
Whistle Down the Wind
The Holy City

THE SEVERAL SIDES OF FATHER JOHN
(This is my show-off disk, and each song is in the original key)
Wheree’er You Walk (Handel)
Bring Him Home (Les Miserables)
Maria (West Side Story)
Ole Man River (Showboat)
Largo al factotum (Il Barbiere di Siviglia)
Love Changes Everything (Aspects of Love, Andrew Lloyd Webber)
Mama (Italian folk song)
Core ngrato
La Fleur que tu M’avais Jetee (Carmen)
Vesti la giubba (Pagliacci)
Nessun Dorma (Turandot)
Sim Shalom (Jewish prayer for peace)
Tit Willow (The Mikado)
The Nightmare Song (Iolanthe)
Captain of the Pinafore (H.M.S. Pinafore)
Could we Start Again, Please? (Jesus Christ Superstar)
You’ll Never Walk Alone (Carousel)
Cruiskeen Lawn (Irish traditional song)
Rose of Tralee (Irish traditional – the song my father sang to my mother on their wedding day)
Parting Glass (Irish pub song)

FATHER JOHN LIVE IN CONCERT
(Live moments from live concerts around Nigeria – 8 different languages)

No Business Like Go-Slow Business
(A parody of life in Lagos)
If I Were A Rich Man
New York, New York
Pollution
Musica Proibita
Luna d’Estate
Ore Meta
6 National Anthems
(Austria – Ireland – France – Africa – USA – Nigeria)
Vainement, Ma Bien Aimee
Volga Boatman
Dark Eyes
Moscow Nights
Yehali na Troika
A Well-Known Fact
O Sole Mio
Non Ti Scordar di Me

So – buy away!

Contact me at:

PO Box 1711

APO AP 96555

or

johnrsheehan@Yahoo.com

Happy Birthday To Me

13 December 2004
Kwajalein - Republic of the Marshall Islands

Boy, did >>I<< have a birthday!!

Not having the brains God gave little green apples, I somehow thought it would be fun to have an Open House, and invite people to come and see where I live. The idea had originally come tome when I lived in the north end, and had a huge yard and a gorgeous view and the bulk of the party would have been outside. Somehow when I moved, I kept the idea and forgot the details – like size. And the fact that when you have an Open House, you never know how many people are coming, rather a critical detail when you start to buy food and drink.

So – blithely, with the joy of the truly ignorant – I wrote invitations, included the notice in the weekly parish bulletin and worked much too hard to get people to know about the event. I picked my birthday because it was a day off (our weekend here is Sunday and Monday) and that way I didn’t have to worry about what would I do on my birthday. Remember several years ago I gave a concert? Same idea. About a week in advance I suddenly realized I probably should start preparing so I made lists of food and went to the grocery and spend vast amounts of money, found a local lady who does catering and booked some Philippine food (which was wonderful, but as it turned out, yet another layer of superfluous).

Usually the day before a major party is the primary day of preparation, but that was Sunday, which (if you have read my latest missive) is usually a long and busy day for me – five Masses on four islands. However because of the cyclone/typhoon/tropical storm weather this past week (that was exciting) the mission that was supposed to happen earlier had been postponed. A mission is a test of something, usually missile tracking or missile interception of some kind. That’s what we do and why we’re here. Because of the mission, flights to Roi were cancelled, so I could not go to the Mass there or on Third Island. That gave me a whole free afternoon to do more work. And as I was working, with the tv on in the background, I saw a scrolling announcement that there was a small craft alert.

Now when I go over to Ebeye for the evening Mass, it is on a small boat. A very small boat. And even if the marine supervisor was willing to let this boat come in, I wasn’t sure I was willing to go forth. So I made a few phone calls and alerted the church on Ebeye that God had cancelled Mass this day. Which gave me the evening.

Up at 5:30 on my birthday. Well, I was first up at 1 and 1:20 and 2 am. Catherine, my secretary from Lagos, was calling to wish me a Happy Birthday. Calls from Africa tend to cut off, which is what had happened on the earlier rings. And she thought it was 2 in the afternoon. So she was the very first one to wish me a happy day. Anyway, intentionally up at 5:30 and working away – cooking and cleaning and worrying. But after several days of truly extraordinary bad weather, we had clear skies and sunshine. The community band was giving its Christmas concert in the morning and it looked at though the mission might actually get off today. A little after 8 I heard a noise from outside my window, and it was one of my neighbors with a weed whacker, going after the long grass in my yard and the yard next door where no one is living. I went out to say thank you, and found another woman, a friend and parishioner, who was working in my back yard, re-arranging the furniture and cleaning.

When guardian angels appear in your life, don’t interfere. I went down to the local shop to get a couple of last minute missing items, and listen to a few minutes of the music – and when I got back, my miracle ladies had moved inside, and were sweeping and mopping. (Note to John – stay out of the way and keep your mouth shut. WHATEVER they want to do is just fine. Wonderful, even.)

And they did. I continued with cooking and preparation (I cleaned the bathroom – there is only so much one can expect of guardian angels.) And by 2, the place looked great, the pine scented candles were trying to make up for the absence of a live tree, food was in the freezer ready for cooking, and some out, and other dishes in the fridge ready to be served. The catering lady came around 2:30 with the first of two loads of lumpia (think egg roll, but longer and thinner and much tastier, especially with the sauce) and chicken lollipops (take the wing, take out the small bone, and push all the meat down to one end. Bread with crumbs made from rice flour and cook – yum) and a steamed dumpling with sweet dough and pork inside whose name I have forgotten – wonderful.

The Open House went from 2 until 7, and food came in with guests (there is a great island tradition here of bringing food when you come to a party, which means there are a lot more parties!) and I cooked and served – we had chicken livers (which I had marinated) wrapped in bacon, and hot olive baked in cheddar cheese dough, and a hot sausage and cheese dip which is to die for, and the usual nuts and chips and veggies and dips (at least four different kinds that I can remember) and desserts beyond counting. There were four large coolers outside – one with beer and wine, one with soft drinks, one with water and a huge one that simply stored the twelve large bags of ice. Since it was an Open House, I had another cooler and more food upstairs – and it turned out that that was where the kids went to be by themselves – adults were inside and outside in the back yard, where a neighbor had donated table and chairs and someone else brought a tablecloth and Christmas decorations so the whole back yard (which usually looks like a front yard somewhere in Appalachia) was very festive and attractive and where the smokers congregated. Some came with presents too - we have one channel that is called the Roller, and it is devoted to Community announcements and they list birthdays. I don't know how my name got there, but I was the only one with a birthday on the December 13th, so it was really obvious.

Around 6, I was called into the living room. People came and went and one of the things that several people commented on was the interesting mix –people were meeting people they didn’t know, which on a small island I consider something of a triumph. There were a group of Marshallese who had brought a large keyboard and – traditions must be honored – everyone sang a special birthday song (to me) and danced and gave me presents (including cash) – I got a lovely hand-made wall hanging, and a shell necklace with a gorgeous small conch as the centerpiece and a carved crab which is simultaneously beautiful and a little bit scary. We sang and danced for about 40 minutes and it was much more fun than the recorded Christmas stuff.

People wandered off into the night by 8, and my guardian angels stayed to help clean up. I kept saying they should go home but they insisted and who am I to contradict angels? By 8:30 the house was clean, the food had been put away (I have enough food to keep me going for weeks. Which is good, since I don’t think I can afford to buy anything until February.) I sat quietly and opened the presents that had been accumulating, and reveled in the memories. During the day a dear friend from Nigeria had called, and the phone rang at about 9:15, another friend from Lagos.

So now I am one away from sixty, and next year I might well do a concert in celebration. Certainly easier than having another Open House.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

Micronesian Meandering #2

Micronesian Missive #2

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Greetings from the Pacific Island of Kwajalein. This is a Christmas card, an update letter, and my attempt to keep in touch with friends I don’t get to see in person nearly often enough. For some of you it has been years (and in some cases, years and years). To be read at your leisure - it seems I am going to be in one place - actually THIS place - for at least the next two years. And at the very end there is a fund raising appeal to help a Marshallese Catholic Church on Ebeye. (You knew I was going to be asking for help for someone, right?)

Contact information:

US mail - PO Box 1711 Mail from Nigeria - c/o 39 E 83rd St
AP APO 96555 New York, NY 10028

Email: johnrsheehan@Yahoo.com
Or
John.sheehan@kls.usaka.smdc.army.mil

Phone: 805 355-2116 (office)
805 355-4535 (home)
805 355-8408 (FAX)

BUT REMEMBER THE TIME ZONE AND DAY DIFFERENCE

When it is 3 PM on Monday afternoon in Kwajalein, it is11 pm on Sunday evening in New York, 8 pm on Sunday night in California, and 5 pm on Sunday in Lagos or London. I’ll try to remember to include a little chart at the end of a sampling of times. If the office is open, there is a secretary who can take a message if I am away; if the office is closed there is a voice mail option. At home I do have an answering machine and I don’t always turn it on.

(If you received the last missive from Micronesia - which was also the first missive from Micronesia - you can skip ahead to the second set of stars. The section in the stars is going to be a catching up section and will all be stuff you’ve already read.)

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In case there is anyone who missed the transition, I left Nigeria in July of 04. I had been there for almost twelve years, and for almost all of that I had been in the office of the Regional Superior. The Region is moving towards becoming a Province and there is a real need to develop some young men to take over positions in administration. No one becomes a priest in order to be an administrator - a Treasurer or an archivist or a development director or assistant to the Regional Superior. These are all jobs I have done - and a couple of others along the way. There was a new Regional Superior coming in and a new assistant, and it seemed it might be the right time to make the move into something new.

The New York Provincial said that I should take a sabbatical. That means a year off. Usually guys spend that kind of time taking courses, to refresh themselves and expand their horizons within their field of work. I was leaving that field of work, and I wasn’t sure what that might mean. My first response was that I didn’t think I’d know what to do with a whole year, that six months would probably suffice, time I would spend catching up with friends and relaxing and doing some serious vacation (golf and hunting and deep sea fishing and horseback riding) and get back into something remotely resembling some shape other than an egg. The summer before I went to theology I had toured Micronesia, and I remembered that the chaplaincy at Kwajalein seemed a fun and relaxing spot. I offered to substitute for the man who was there for his vacation time. I thought it might be a good way to begin my re-introduction to the U.S. My image was that it would be a sort of halfway house - not quite the U.S. but with a lot of those elements.

I started to sketch out a plan of travel from then, and was in the process of contacting friends and trying to get invited to stay places. And then I got an email from the Provincial. The man on Kwajalein was not going to be returning after his vacation. He had developed a medical problem, and was going to have to stay in New York and go through some serious medical testing. He asked if I would be willing to stay on Kwajalein until Thanksgiving, to give him time to try and find a replacement. He also mentioned that if I were interested in taking that assignment, he would be most open to it. (That’s a polite way of saying since we have no idea what we’re going to do with you, this could be a possibility.) I thought about it for a day or two, and replied that it would make more sense for me to stay through Christmas. It’s awkward for a parish to have priests dropping in and out, and after Christmas is a more logical time for a man to leave some place and start at a new one. I also said that I didn’t think I would be interested in this as a permanent assignment. My sense was that Kwajalein was a nice job for a (much) older man, sort of a semi-retirement posting, light work. No thank you.

If you did NOT receive the first letter from Micronesia for some reason, including the reviews from my farewell concert in Lagos, let me know and I will send it to you. No point in cluttering this up any more than necessary.)

In the proverbial nutshell, I got to Kwajalein on August 12th, and almost immediately people here began campaigning for my staying. After two months of living on the island and some serious prayer and reflection, I asked the Provincial - assuming he did not have any particular assignment in mind for me or greater need - that I be assigned here as a regular assignment.

* * * * * * * * * * *
I’m writing this on Thanksgiving weekend. Had a Mass at 10 this morning, and the usual turkey and what-not. Made some phone calls - now THERE is a strange feeling, being able to make a phone call - and I am watching the Macy’s Parade on television. I hear myself sometimes sounding like a crochety old man, but by God, I remember a day when you turned on the tv and watched the parade. NOW - you watch promo short bits for Broadway shows, interviews with actors I have never heard of from series I have never heard of - the parade has been on for 55 minutes as I pen these immortal words, and I don’t think we have had five minutes of actual parade. (It is also pouring rain out, which adds a nice intimacy to the afternoon - I have just brewed a fresh pot of coffee, so the smell of Colombian ground coffee is in the air, and there is a piece of mince pie in the oven - and the Rockettes are doing a dance routine to music from a newly-released movie. Sigh.) I may break one of my own house rules and both smoke a cigar inside the house and have a drink by myself.

Back to the narrative. After I had been here for a couple of months, I did a couple of days of prayer and reflection, and put it to the Provincial that while I remained available for anything - and certainly open for whatever he might decide - all things being equal, I thought it might be a good thing for me to be here for a couple of years. It wasn’t an easy decision, and one reason was because it seemed so good. Beautiful locale, real need, wonderful people - we are supposed to go where the need is greatest, and I had to ask seriously if this were the greatest need.

At the same time, it is the primary responsibility of the Provincial or Superior to determine that need, and I certainly didn’t have any strong options to offer. I did ask that if I were to be assigned here that the offer of a sabbatical remain for whenever I might finish THIS assignment. There were negatives. I would be going back into work without much of a break, rest or vacation. There are a lot of good friends (that would be you who are reading this) whom I have not seen in a long time. And I would be in a situation where I would be the only Jesuit. You can’t talk of being “alone” in the middle of a community of 2,300 - but alone in the sense of not being in a community of Jesuits.

The Provincial, after consulting with the Regional Superior, who had been here for a visit, said yes. Plan on staying for two years, and we’ll evaluate it then. The usual Jesuit assignment is for six years, unless you stay longer. Or less. I was in Nigeria for just under 12. So who knows.

So I am here. Let me see if I can add to a sense of life on my little island since I sent out the last missive. One of the major changes was in where I am living. I had described my trailer and the truly spectacular view I had in my front yard. Well, shortly after I sent off the last missive, I was informed that I would have to move. Nothing personal - they were going to tear down or move out all the trailers in the North end, and replace them with dome units. They gave me a list of trailers to look at, so I could decide which one I liked. I looked and wrote the powers that be that I really didn’t “like” any of them. I pointed out the needs of a chaplain for some degree of privacy, and noted that we had added a whole extra room onto the original trailer. So between the added room and the front yard, I was going to be looking at a significant reduction in space. Someone intervened, and I found myself on the list for hard housing - and I am now in a 2-bedroom, two story unit, one of 4 in a unit. Concrete block construction, three air conditioners (one in each bedroom and one for the downstairs) - nice kitchen, and a whole lot closer to the office than the other location. Now there isn’t much a view -pretty much the street and other peoples’ houses. But the inside living is better. When the dome is built will they give that site back for the Catholic chaplain? Who knows. It’s a toss - goods and bads in each choice. Moving was a pain - but setting up a whole new place has been fun. I’ve gone broke getting reading for Christmas - the former chaplain didn’t leave a single ornament. So I have been stocking up on ornaments and lights and what nots. They bring live trees in on a barge, and fresh wreaths. It’s been twelve years since I’ve had a real Christmas tree. I am looking forward to it. I’m having an open house here on the 13th. I was hoping the trees would be in, so it could be a tree-trimming party (a sneaky way to get other people to do the work for you) but the trees arrive on the 16th.

I done a couple of baptisms, prayed at the Veteran’s Day ceremonies for the Army and led a discussion on Angels and Demons. I have been the guest preacher at the Protestant Service, and one of the judges of the poster contest at the high school Turkey Bowl. We’ve had memorial services, and I sold my CD’s at the local art guild bazaar, where I also sang. I have my boat license for sailing and one more test for my power boat license, I am a member of the Yacht club and I have my locker and tag at the golf course. The pro even said I had a pretty good swing!! I’ve started a Parish Council and a Finance Committee, we have a committee working on re-designing the Catholic chapel, and another working with me to design the web site. I send out an electronic bulletin each week in addition to a printed bulletin at Mass. I’ve turned down invitations to sing with the community chorus and to do a lead role in the Christmas musical.

On Sunday I am saying Mass five times on four different islands, in addition to the anticipated Mass on Saturday afternoon. There is a 7:00 am and a 9:15 am here on Kwajalein, (which means I have to be in the office by 6 which means the old alarm goes off around 5) and then I get on a plane and fly about twenty-five minutes north to Roi Namur. I ride my bike (yes, I have a bike up there as well as one here) from the airport to the chapel, say Mass, and then on to the dock, where a water taxi (ie a SMALL boat) is waiting to take me on a ten-minute ride over to Ennibur (also known as Third Island, also known as Santos) where I say Mass in Marshallese. Well, I say Mass mostly in English, a little bit in Marshallese, and the community answers in Marshallese. Bit by bit I am expanding my Marshallese. Back on the boat to Roi, a bit of a layover where I have time to smoke a cigar and meditate or read - and then I fly back to Kwajalein. I ride my bike to the security dock, where another small boat awaits, a 15 minute ride over to Ebeye, and I head confessions for about a half an hour and then say Mass at 7 PM. There is an 8:30 ferry - about a 25 minute ride in the dark - so I am back on Kwaj around 9 pm. A good friend who is a fireman usually has a Sunday evening barbecue, so I stop by his place on the way home for a beer and leftovers if there are any and a cigar. He is a serious collector and afficionado and always has something new for me to try. Sunday - day of rest. Not.

One of the dimensions of being here is to be of some service to the Marshallese community, both on Kwajalein but also on Ebeye and Ennibur and other islands (one is called Goojeegoo - and one of the things about Marshallese is that since it has existed for so many years as a spoken language, there is no set spelling for words. You spell it as it sounds to you - my teacher will spell the same word two or three different way in the same lesson. One of the things about learning the language is abandoning some of your hard-learned precepts about spelling.). Most can understand some English - not all can speak it. I can say a few things - but I find it very hard to “hear” the language yet. Many of the elements and social structure are very similar to their Nigerian counterparts - some Marshallese are surprised at how quickly I have learned about their culture. Not so new.

Halloween was great fun. In addition to the on-island, they let something like 150 kids from Ebeye come over, so there were lots of customers. Most people sit outside so I joined the golf pro who lives across the street and we talked and smoked and passed out candy to the assorted munchkins. Lots of great costumes and a night harkening back to a Norman Rockwell sort of world. For those in Lagos, it’s not unlike living at Chevron, except maybe more so. And you never have to leave the compound to go outside. Mayberry lives. People don’t lock doors, everyone knows everyone, the kids at the high school consistently score significantly higher on the SAT than the national average, and we have almost all the amenities - movies several times a week at our indoor and outdoor theatres, meals available at the dining hall and a snack bar with a huge menu, a bowling alley, tennis courts, basketball, baseball, two gyms, a very well equipped exercise hall, a golf course, swimming and sailing and boating and fishing and snorkeling and kayaks and diving. There is a running club and a bike club and the yacht club and a women’s club a video rental shop and a beauty parlor, a grocery store and the equivalent of a 7-11, two retail stores, post office, a very good library, our own radio station, in addition to radio and tv being brought in from the outside. Armed Forces network gives us 8 channels for tv. And another channel with the local radar tracking, so we can keep track of weather coming in. Good hospital, full dental clinic - four doctors and two dentists live on island, and other doctors (orthodontist, optometrist, etc) come on regularly. Vet too for the animals. We even had a guy here this last week from Waterford Crystal, to do personalized engraving on any piece of crystal. Not necessarily one you bought - if you had it, he would engrave. There are several clubs - the American Legion has a bar and meeting hall, there is a snack bar and bar bar on the coast, the Yukwe Yuk Club is the most polished, and they have special events regularly, including an open mike night where anyone can get up and perform. No, I haven’t succumbed to the temptation.

We have several beaches, which are the venue of choice for farewell and anniversary parties and parties for which you don’t really have a reason. We also get bands through the Armed Forces Entertainment Services. One of the benefits is that the housing is supplied, so when there is a problem with the hot water heater or something goes wrong - I call someone to come and fix it. There is a self-help unit, which provides all sorts of stuff to maintain the place, like lawn mowers, weed whackers, garbage bags and all sorts of tools.

Now one of the things you have to deal with is shipping and getting things onto the island. If you are buying for yourself, you are at the mercy of the post office and shipping gods, and mail can be weeks or days. No way of knowing. If you are ordering officially - ie through the company - you figure a lead time of at least three months. I ordered the Easter Paschal candle in mid-November. Magazine subscriptions routinely expire before the renewal order gets processed and sent through. The received wisdom is “It’s on the next barge.” There are even t-shirts.

It’s not all beer and skittles. The reason we have the ability to leave doors unlocked and run a small community on a large scale is that we an Army base and we have rules and regulations and a fairly high degree of supervision. It’s a trade-off, and one I don’t find particularly irksome. But pretty much everything is done a la Noah’s Ark - two by two. You can’t swim alone, you can’t sail alone - pretty much everything has to be in pairs.

And there are the small town syndromes. There is a very active gossip grapevine, and a whole host of small town sensibilities and prejudices. I ran afoul of one woman who took a simple moment and blew it up, sent emails to my religious superior, to the president of the company
and to the commanding colonel. Now all sorts of people rallied to my support, and apparently she has a reputation in the community - but she is nasty and vindictive (trust me, I am being charitable) and in the past, people didn’t fight back. I did - in public - and got the full support from the company and the commanding officer and eventually from the Jesuit regional superior (who was far away and trying to figure out what was happening long distance) and I have now signed on as a regular full-time permanent employee. But there were a couple of weeks when it was a little like being a politician in the middle of an accusation of something that turns out not to be true. Hopefully it will, in the longer run, be a cause of bringing the community closer together. And realizing that we have to work together.

I get two days off a week - some of that time goes for the basics like laundry and shopping and ironing (I had forgotten how much I really HATE ironing!!!) But I also go to the gym regularly and do long bike rides, occasional golf and more regular visits to the driving range. I’ve dropped 15 pounds since coming here - more to go, more to go. I’m not eligible for a vacation until the end of 2005 - which means it will be some time in 2006 before I get a real vacation. So those of you with guest rooms don’t have to worry for a while yet about a bearded visitor. Except, perhaps, for Santa Claus, of course.

FINANCIAL PITCH

Ebeye is the adjoining island (see above) and the level of poverty is - while not as great as parts of Lagos - fairly awful. Jesuits have been there for many years, and we have built a school and a very active parish. The school is doing well - although there are more children on the streets because they are unable to get seats in schools than there are children in school. The parish is involved in many parts of life on the island, and has helped many get jobs and training and is a strong positive force in the community. The church and other buildings on the compound are badly in need of renovation - it has been many years since the original construction, and the constant ocean climate is not helpful to keeping things in the best of shape.

So - the parish is planning a major renovation. Hoping. Part of the problem is that many are living very simply and on the edge of existence - there is very little “spare” cash. They do very well in supporting the ongoing activities of the parish, but for something like a renovation, they find it very difficult. They have started taking up separate collections, and over the space of a month, they have raised approximately $1,300. Considering their circumstances that’s a tremendous symbol of community support. I don’t know exactly what the projection is - how much they hope to raise. As was the case in Nigeria, they will end up doing much of the work themselves - but they will still need the materials with which to do the work. Some renovation is for the church, but more is for the classrooms and community rooms which serve all the people.

So - anything you would care to donate to the project will be greatly appreciated. Make the check out to Blessed Sacrament Parish and send it to me directly. We have a different situation here and so we don’t need to go through the New York Province. It is still tax-deductible. Blessed Sacrament (the parish here) is a recognized parish by the US government. (I can provide the necessary tax data if needed, but usually the cancelled check to a parish is enough.) Obviously, for this tax year, you’ve got to date the check before December 31. But your gift will be welcome at any time. I’m even contributing. I have a salary!! (for the first time in 25 years!) Around half of it goes to the Jesuits of Micronesia, to support their work here. Collections at the parish here go to support the world of the local church throughout Micronesia, through the Prefect’s office (functions like a Bishop but does not have the full office). And the parish does a special series of collections during Lent specifically for the work of the Prefecture in the Outer Islands, the smallest and poorest and most distant in the chain.

See? I have managed to land in a place where there are still lots of needs. And you thought your checkbook was safe!!!

So there we are. I hope your holidays are joy-filled. It will be a busy time for me but I hope I may be able to actually talk to you by phone at some point during the season. Hug anyone who should be hugged - if I don’t know them, hug them anyway. I will see some of you when I finally do get a vacation - and if you come out here before that, well, there you will be. Thank you for your prayers, your support and your friendship over the years.

Micronesian Meandering # 1

Meanderings from Micronesia

Greetings from my little island! For those of you who were wondering what is Sheehan doing now - here you are. (If you weren’t wondering - well, then you might want to print this message out, ball it up and use it to keep the drafts from coming in under the door. >Cause from here on out, it’s pretty much about me and what I’ve been doing since leaving Nigeria, and what Kwajalein is like and why I am seriously considering asking to stay, rather than simply doing five months and moving on.)

Leaving Nigeria

Let’s close the old book first, eh?

If you know me at all, you know I collect stuff. Stuff finds its way to me. I am NOT one of those heroic saintly souls whose room resembles a cell, with a bare wall and an empty cupboard and one change of underwear. From my days of touring I have learned the value of lots of underwear, and I always like to have outfits appropriate to the events. One of the things I was known for in Lagos was dressing in Nigerian cloth, and I had some lovely outfits. Some of my Jesuit brothers gave me a hard time about my wardrobe, but the Nigerians loved my dress, and thought I was paying them a compliment. I was, but it was also comfortable, inexpensive and looked good. BUT - not knowing where I would be going, one of the first “casualties” of moving was the wardrobe. Bags and bags and bags of clothes were given away to the poor. (One guy asked if I would be sending some of the outfits to a museum - I think he said the Smithsonian.) I did keep a couple of the dressier outfits for formal occasions (and costume parties) but as the deadline for departure got closer, and I realized that when it came to packing, the old “eyes are bigger than your stomach” works exactly the other way around, more outfits made their way into the bags and more into boxes for storage. I ended up taking very few of the full Nigerian outfits with me.

Someone from Chevron had volunteered, with the full knowledge and blessing of Chevron managements toinclude my boxes with his household shipment going back to the U.S. (I suppose I should be saying Chevron-Texaco - hard to keep tracks of these mergers and corporate identity shifts. Part of my problem is probably a block since Texaco refused to continue sponsoring the opera broadcasts. It could not have been the money, since the total sponsorship was really fairly inexpensive, considering the publicity and exposure. I suspect some bright young executive felt that it was too “elitist” to be associated with opera, and we will probably see Texaco shortly sponsoring rock concerts and food kitchens. Food kitchens are good - no objection to food kitchens. But the soul has to be fed too. Anyway...)

So I had to not only pack boxes but list the contents and put together a manifest. Because of new security regulations, everything I packed would be re-packed by local movers, a fact that brought little joy to my life but is inescapable. So I packed and stacked and wrote down and packed some more. Ended up with something like 29 boxes, including a foot locker. (I found that my canes would not go into the largest of the lacking boxes. It also provided protection for the violin and the bowed psaltery.) Our pick-up truck with the enclosed section was filled right to the roof, as was the back seat, and a couple of boxes went in the Land Rover. But all got delivered and clocked in and there goes a large section of my life I won’t see again until heaven knows when. The boxes will reach Houston in the middle or toward the end of November, and I will have to worry about moving them from there at some point.

I left a lot of things behind - the piano, the crossbow, and the large photo portrait of me that a good friend gave me for my 55th birthday, complete with a very ornate gold frame. It was a GREAT picture - very large - but now really, what was I going to do with it? I also left a number of last-minute presents, including a wonderful carving that the DHL folks brought over. Unfortunately it did not come with a DHL gift certificate so I could ship it, so it too became a resident treasure at Surulere. It was a modern version of the thinker, and it was just gorgeous. But - there you are.

The last few weeks after the concert were very busy, dealing with the auditors, trying to straighten out files and records and leave things in clear order. I knew where everything was, but I had to admit that a stranger walking in might not have the same instinctive sense that I did, and so I spent a lot of time working with my assistant, showing her where things were and how different things tied together. I was not as successful as I had hoped - I had this great vision of a brilliantly organized set of handover notes. Needed another two weeks, which I did not have.

I had 21 different farewell parties, lunches, dinner and receptions. Most were given by Nigerians, individuals and groups, which I felt said something about my time in Africa. Exceptions were the Austrian Ambassador, the Kano chapter of the Jesuit Alumni (mostly Lebanese members, although at the big cocktail party, most of the guests were Nigerian), and a picnic hosted by the Filipino community. The bank gave me a dinner party, and a gorgeous oil painting, which they had carefully removed from the frame and presented to me with a mailing tube, so it could be more easily shipped. The staff at Surulere gave me a painting as well, and small enough so that it could fit into one of the boxes. I had a long list of presents - felt a lot like Christmas, except I didn’t give anything back.

The day finally came (I am attached copies of the reviews of my final concert, and if I can get ahold of them, the interviews with me by the two largest papers in Nigeria.) and although I stayed up all night the night before I left - mostly working in the office - I was showered and packed and ready to go to the airport. I felt a little like a refugee. I had a large suitcase, a small suitcase, and my golf clubs. These were checked in - and I carried my computer and another bag, both chock full, a small carton in my arms, and I wore my photographer’s vest with every pocked filled. I had given myself a farewell present, and booked my ticket home on Business Class. Did you know that if you travel in Business, they don’t count your golf clubs as part of your baggage? Yup, two checked bags - but the clubs don’t count. At least on British Air.

So I found myself, mildly exhausted, in the Business lounge at Murtala Mohammed airport, sipping a drink and contemplating my future. Ran into several people I knew - my chieftaincy bracelets were the topic of conversation throughout the check-in and security process - but without any great fuss or problem, I found myself sitting in a Business Class seat, upstairs in the aircraft. (There is a nice symmetry to this. When I left New York to come to Nigeria back in 1992, a friend of Fr. McFarland’s worked for KLM and got me a Business Class seat for the first part of the flight, so I left JFK in Business as well. I had also been up all the night before packing and getting things into storage - some things never change.) Two Nigerians were in the seats right in front of me - I knew the man from Rotary and his wife knew me from my concerts.

Reflection
Everyone keeps asking me how I felt leaving, what was it like? One answer is that I don’t know yet. I had lived in Lagos longer than I had lived any other single place in my whole life. I had thought I would be there a little longer than I was. I had supposed that I would stay through the transition from being a dependent Region to becoming an independent Province. That process has been approved by Father General, and is well under way. The discussions with the New York Province about the separation agreement have been going on, and most of the major points have been agreed on. One problem might be that when I left, there was no one to replace me as Treasurer - not even a serious candidate on the horizon - and it may be that Rome will not approve the move without someone in that position. (Why did they want me to move when they didn’t have anyone to replace me? Good question, but I am not the person with the answer.)

Lagos is not an easy place to live. Unless they have had the experience, it is hard for someone to understand how much energy you spend each day just coping with the basics. Even expatriates with diplomatic or oil company ties only experience part of it, since so many of their necessities are taken care of for them. Making sure there is water, diesel, dealing with phone companies, suppliers, repair people - this can easily become a full-time job. Grocery shopping is an event that takes two men the better part of a full day. Moving around this city of almost 20 million is always uncertain, and an accident or a heavy rain can turn a 20-minute trip into two or three hours. There are police checks, fraudsters, armed robbers and simple thieves. (Yes, I do mean to put the police and the criminals into the same grouping. It was intentional.)

But there are also great rewards. For all its size, Lagos is a small city, and it is possible to meet wonderful (and famous) people much more easily than would be the case in smaller but more organized or structured cities. I knew the man who is the current president before he was elected, and it was an unusual day when I did not know at least one person featured in a front page news story. When I left, the largest newspaper in this country of over 120 million people ran a review of my farewell concert on Page One, and on the day of my leaving, the second largest had a review that was also a tribute. (See the end of this missive.) I was touched and proud.

I was sent to Nigeria to work in communications, in Kaduna, and only stayed there for 26 days before the Regional Superior moved all the Jesuits out. For a while, I had no job, and tried to fill in wherever I could, to make myself useful. I accepted jobs I didn’t want, and did jobs no one else wanted to do. I worked hard at learning the culture and the people, and found myself in a position where some (expatriate) Jesuits criticized me - and Nigerians in large numbers praised me, not just for my efforts but for my accomplishments. We don’t do the work for the praise - but it was nice to hear from expatriates (not Jesuits) and Nigerians how much they thought I had done, how valuable my presence was and how much I would be missed.

So there is much about being in Nigeria I will miss. Certainly I left with regret, because I felt there was more I could do. Yet there is also a certain relief in leaving any difficult situation, and a certain satisfaction in hearing from others that you have done well. Jesuits are not very good at taking care of our own, and we are not usually very good at saying goodbye to people. None of those 21 parties and receptions were given by Jesuits. That’s not unusual, several of our men have left with barely a nod of the head, after many years of service in a job or a place. Not having any sense of what might be next - and having a definite sense that my own superiors didn’t have anything in mind - made leaving more difficult, even at the elemental level of packing. What to take, what to store, what to give away.

So I certainly have mixed feelings - and a fair bit of unknown territory before I can answer the questions that began this section. Hopefully my time on Kwajalein will give me the odd moments to “process” all that has gone before (to use one of the trendy expressions for this sort of thing).

And thus endeth the reflections.

Reviewing the Situation
(With apologies to the composer of Oliver who has a wonderful song with that same title that I have sung on occasion.) The Provincial in New York said I should take a sabbatical on leaving Nigeria. A sabbatical is usually a year, but I said I wasn’t sure I would know what to do with a year. Since I didn’t have a new assignment to prepare for, the usual options of learning a language or taking some courses didn’t really apply. I was (am?) tired. I had worked hard during my time in Africa and while I was a great advocate for vacations and leave for our men, I was better at convincing others to do it than I was doing it myself. I said I thought that six months would be adequate and I put together a program for that time, a schedule that would give me both rest and exercise, and the chance to visit some friends I had not seen for years.

The first item I had proposed was to substitute for the chaplain on Kwajalein, while he went off on his vacation. I had visited Kwajalein back in 1986 or 87, just before I went to theology, and I remembered it as a lovely spot. It is an American base, and I thought it would provide a good transition between Africa and full-blown America. It is usually the case that people who have been out of the country for a while, whether religious or lay, find it more difficult to adjust to life back in the US than it was to adjust to life in the foreign country. So - an American base in the Pacific felt like a good middle step, with elements of each “world.” Then I was going to visit friends, play golf, and enjoy the Fall - football and changing leaves and chilly weather, sweaters and gloves and ice skating and all sorts of things I hadn’t experienced for twelve years.

I made this suggestion, and didn’t hear anything for a long time, and so had started to work on Plan B, which was going to visit Lebanon for a month on my way home. I have made many Lebanese friends, and their hospitality is exceeded only by their generosity. I knew I would not lose any weight, but I would have a chance to see one of the most beautiful countries in the Middle East, staying with friends who could show me the best and most intimate parts of the place. Then I got an email that the Provincial had approved this idea and I should contact the chaplain, Fr Bill Sullivan to work out the details. I did, put the Lebanon trip into the file cabinet for another life time, and made subsequent plans accordingly.

About three weeks before I was set to go, I got a note from the Provincial that Fr Sullivan had developed medical problems and had had to resign from the position, and would I be available to take his place until perhaps Thanksgiving? (Available is a particular word for a Jesuit. We are always supposed to be available, and certainly my understanding of how we are to respond is that any Jesuit should always be available.) I was not thrilled - I had plans and schedules and I really wanted to have Fall. But - as I reflected - it seemed difficult for the people on Kwajalein to first lose their chaplain and then have people popping in and out. So I suggested, and the Provincial accepted, staying through Christmas. I felt that it would be better to have one person for the whole Advent and Christmas season, and that it would be easier to find someone to take the job starting in the new year. A logical time to start a new work. So - Kwajalein until early January, and then I would start my sabbatical. About which I had a whole new idea. More on that in a little bit.

LONDON
The schedule meant I had to get to Kwaj pretty quickly. But not instantly, so I was able to have a week in London and a week in New York before arriving at my new spot. I arrived around 5:30 in the morning. When you fly in Business, you get to go through a special Customs line, and your baggage really does come off first. So I was on my way out into the London morning fairly easily. Of course, the UK knows all about the problems in Nigeria, and so as you leave the plane, there are about 6 Customs Officers, spot checking passports and documents. As I left, one man I knew, a Nigerian banker and very respectable, had gotten his bags before me but had been stopped by the Customs people and they were taking his luggage apart. When I walked past, all the items were out of the bags and they were checking the suitcases themselves.

I went to our Jesuit Mission house in Wimbledon, found my room and went right to sleep. Got up around noon, had a lovely long shower, chatted with the folks there and went out. Ran a few errands - got a new battery for my wristwatch, bought a train ticket, mailed a letter, bought some batteries and a disposable camera - and I had spent over sixty pounds. Yike! Things had gotten expensive! I was going down to Southsea, on the coast, to visit the daughter of a good friend of mine who is a novelist in Lagos. UK trains are so wonderful. I had to switch trains at one point - with about a three minute break. But each train was on time, and three minutes was enough. There was supposed to be a wagon service on the second train, for snacks and refreshments. As I got on, they were getting off. Fair enough. But the announcer on the train (yes, there are announcers on the train) apologized about six different times, complete with explanations as to why they had left.

Kemi (my friend’s daughter) and her husband met me at the train and took me back to their gorgeous place, complete with a great back yard garden. Not huge, but wonderful. The weather, by the way, was breath-takingly beautiful. We went down to a local pub, and then to the restaurant where they had had their wedding lunch. Wonderful menu - I had snails in garlic and butter, and fresh venison. I didn’t like the dessert menu, so they created a dessert for me. The chef came out and sat with us - when he appeared I knelt and kissed his feet. He thought this was appropriate behavior (he’s French) and we became fast friends. Had a long and wonderful conversation. There were three couples at the next table and it turned out they were celebrating a birthday - a young man was celebrating 83 years - and so, naturally, I sang a Happy Birthday to them. Home for a chat and a happy collapse into bed.
Next morning, up and off to the fresh fish shop. (We are at the seashore, remember.) Fresh shrimp, small size, that we can mix into the scrambled eggs, and a couple of lobsters for later in the day. Breakfast is eggs and shrimp and fresh coffee and juice and fresh rolls - ah, yes. Kemi went to the hairdresser (a Nigerian woman who was going to join us for dinner) and her husband went to collect a friend who had shown up at the airport unexpectedly from Florida, and I went for a walk along the seaside and through the town. After a couple of hours of just walking - saw a wedding where the bridesmaids were all in light purple dresses - and home for a drink and a sit down. Everyone re-gathered. The guy from Florida went to take a nap, and the three of us shared two lobsters. (I had opened the fridge earlier to get a cold drink and nearly had a heart attack when something moved - I had forgotten about the lobsters.) Different preparation - instead of boiling the critters, they were cut apart while alive and fried in a sauce of sherry and cream and I don’t know what else. Yummy - different texture to the meat, but delicious. After that, there a unanimous meeting of the minds - naps all around. And then dinner - peach bellini first, lots of champagne (there was wine, but when there is champagne, why confuse the taste buds?) Then a roast pork to die for, and wonderful veggies and home made rasperry sorbet. By the end of the evening, I was convinced I wasn’t going to eat until Tuesday.

Well, except for breakfast. Cause when I got up and helped Kemi clean the kitchen, we rewarded ourselves with eggs and bacon and chili-laced sausage and English muffins (what do you call English muffins in England? Why crumpets, of course.) I felt rather like an expectant mother in her 7th month. With twins. Definitely not going to eat until Tuesday.

Had a gentle train ride home - home for the moment being Wimbledon - hated to leave, I love being near the sea. (Remember that line. This is what novelists and writing teachers call foreshadowing. Subtle, eh?) When I got back to the house there was a note from Tony Montfort, inviting me to his place that evening for a lamb dinner. Now Tony Montfort, who is the director of Jesuit missions, is a magnificent human being, one of the most generous people I know, second perhaps only to Santa Claus. He has many gifts, but one of them is an uncanny ability to select and create lamb that brings tears to your eyes. If there is lamb in heaven, this is it. His mashed potatoes are as good - and dessert is traditionally fresh raspberries and cream.

If the first three days out of Nigeria are any indication, my future is going to be great. (And I am only going to weigh three hundred pounds!) Actually, as the week went on, a whole lot of walking and paying attention kept my weight level - didn’t lose anything, but didn’t gain anything either. I called some friends, just enjoyed being in London, did some catch up work closing things out from Nigeria. I even went to a movie - The Passion of the Christ. I really wanted to see this on a big screen with the full sound. I found it neither as moving as some have reported, nor as violent or disgusting. The reality was worse, and I was disappointed in some of the historical choices that I think were simply incorrect. I thought the Aramaic was a brilliant decision, and I don’t agree with those who charge it is anti-Semitic. A good movie but in twenty years I don’t think many people will be watching it.

On Saturday I did go to the Globe Theatre. I had never been, and I was unable to get a ticket on line - they were all sold out - but I went down (after a visit to Harrod’s) and haunted the ticket office and sure enough, there was a returned ticket. It was the Feast of St Ignatius, how could I not be lucky? Information item - if you go to the Globe, get a seat in the back row. In keeping with the historical accuracy of the place, there are no seats, just benches. The back row, you can lean against the wall. If you’re not lucky, they rent seat backs.

The production was Measure for Measure, not one of my favorite Shakespeare works. The director went for laughs - not interpretations I would necessarily agree with but one I can understand. Let me rephrase that - he went for cheap laughs, and was very successful in getting them. I don’t know if he didn’t trust his actors or the audience or the script - but the tourists had a good time and it was a fun afternoon. There was a gathering of Jesuits at the local parish rectory for the feast day, with guys working in at least seven different countries and four continents. On the way home, passing the church, I was hailed by some people who were at a wedding reception in the hall next to the church, and they invited me up for a drink. Couldn’t offend them by saying no, so in I went.

One more time to pack, and the car came to take me to the airport around 7 am. I was a little early, but once I was through security - which was no problem - I was off to the Business lounge. Ah, like a purring pussycat, I settled into the lap of luxury, checking email on the free computers and munching on the free pastries and reading the free newspapers and sitting in the comfortable chairs. I could even have had a nap on the comfortable beds. Again, sitting in the front of the plane (and again, sitting upstairs) puts a whole different dimension on flying. Almost enjoyable. Watched Shrek 2 and other movies I cannot even remember. Taxi ride to the Jesuit community at 83rd Street (the cab driver was an Indian who said he now thinks of New York as home) and in for unpacking, a shower, drinks and dinner, trying to stay awake until time for bed according to the local schedule.

New York
My time in New York was mostly functional - I never even got down to see my sister, although we did talk by phone several times. On Monday I went to see the dentist - can you say root canal? Yup, the loose filling turned out to be a cracked tooth. Originally the dentist said he was going to have to pull it, but when he started taking it apart, it had a firm foundation, so he did the r/c and on Kwajalein I will get the post and crown work done. Next day I went to the doctor - who did an examination, and sent me to the xray guy, and then to a specialist. I finished with him (big cortesone shot in my shoulder - whole new areas of pain) just in time to go back to the dentist for a cleaning and a check up. At that point I felt I had earned a treat, and since I knew I couldn’t afford a Broadway show, I went to a baseball game. It had been years since I had been in Yankee stadium, so off I went to buy a ticket.

Did you know that the top ticket price for a regular game at Yankee stadium is $95? I ended up with a $45 ticket. A game program is $7 and a yearbook is $20 - neither of which items went home with me. I did have a hot dog ($4.50 - that’s at the stand. If you get one from the guy who walks through the seats, it’s $4.75 - yes, children, there is a delivery charge.) And a beer ($8). But don’t tell me the economy is suffering. Almost every seat was filled, and certainly the people around me were porking down the food and drink like it was going to be outlawed in the morning. One chubby teenager with a doting mother chomped his way through at least $100 worth of edibles.

But the thing that really struck me was the game itself. Used to be (I know, I am not only showing my age but sounding like someone’s grandfather. Sorry, but at moments like these I feel like somebody’s grandfather.) you went to a ball game to see the ball game. The night I was at Yankee Stadium, there was not any space of silence lasting more than perhaps ten seconds, with the exception of the 7th inning stretch, when we had a moment of silence for the men and women who had lost their lives defending the country. But every other moment was filled with music, commentary, games with audience participation, advertising - even the guys who came out after the 5th inning to sweep the infield were choreographed, with music and a “cute” routine. Spare me. One almost felt the game itself was a distraction from the entertainment. Baseball for people who don’t like baseball.

And the Yankees lost 13 to 4.

I stayed until the very end and took a good long look at the stadium, since I doubt I will ever be inside again. Gentle ride home. The remaining days were spent shopping, getting ready for the next step. I did go down to Princeton for a quick overnight visit, and had dinner with friends on two different nights. But it was a quick time, and before I knew it, I was off to the airport, for a 10-hour flight to Honolulu. Steerage all the way. But the seats on Continental were a little better than others and although I was in the last seat in the rear, and the seats to my right were sleep seats for the crew, which meant that the trip was rather like flying in a flight simulator for instrument flight testing. They at least served light meals rather than the usual heavy fare, and I arrived in Honolulu feeling pretty good. Called the hotel - they sent a bus and I found I was staying about a five minute ride away. Checked in - had a lovely dinner of prime rib - and collapsed in bed.

Honolulu - I rode downtown on a bus, and spent the day just walking around, everything from shopping malls and beaches, a long chat with a charter fishing boat captain, and some time wandering around in Chinatown. Seems I am destined to be in places where I am in a minority. Went back to the hotel for an afternoon swim, dinner by the pool, a quiet smoke on the pipe and an early bed. Because I had to be on the 4:30 am shuttle to the airport.

News item to file away for future reference - the Honolulu airport at 5 in the morning is a quiet place. But you can pretty well assume that everyone in the queue is going where you are, and I got to start meeting people.

Another news item - the coffee shops don’t open until 6. Although some smart person, seeing a plane load of hungry people standing around, opened early. Coffee and a Danish. Yum. On the plane - and again, I was seated almost at the very rear of the aircraft. On this plane, the rest rooms were in the rear, so I got to see, if not actually meet, pretty much everyone on the plane, at least in the steerage section. It’s a 6 1/2 hour ride from Honolulu to Kwajalein, with a stop in Majuro (get out your map) and crossing the international date line, so we left on Wednesday morning and arrived on Thursday morning. In Majuro half the plane had to get off with their carry-on luggage, so inspectors could check the plane. I was on the getting off half.

But eventually we were all back on the plane, the queue to the rest room formed immediately, and life aboard the Continental flight settled back to normal. Fortunately it is a short hope from Maj to Kwaj and before you could say Yukwe Yuk (I’ll explain that in a bit) there we were, being greeted by sniffer dogs and the American military. Fill out the forms, and wait to be called. Good sign - my name badge was ready, so they took my picture, and I was admitted to Kwajalein.

(If you’ve run out of popcorn, this is a natural place for an intermission. Go visit the rest room - hopefully there will be no queue - refill your drink and your snack bowl. We are about to explore a South Pacific atoll.)

Kwajalein

Kwaj is an atoll, a small bit of land 3 1/2 miles long and perhaps a mile wide at its broadest spot. About 2,000 people live on Kwaj and a bunch of Marshallese come over from Ebeye to work. Ebeye is smaller than Kway, and yet has something over 20,000 people living there. About 90% of the income on Ebeye comes from Kwajalein. And it is a very poor place. The Jesuits have a parish and run the only high school on the island, although the government is going to open another school.

Kwaj is a military base, although there are only about 20 soldiers. The rest of the island is civilian, working for one of the three companies that support the mission of the military. Kwaj is a downrange radar tracking station, and a missile testing site. (Actually the Ronald Reagan Missile Testing Facility.) They do weather testing and a host of other missions I don’t yet completely understand.) On Kwaj there is an elementary and a secondary school. There is a supermarket and the equivalent of a 7-11, only with a much wider selection. There is a post office, a beauty shop, a travel agency, and two stores that carry clothing and electronics and hardware, sporting equipment. There is a bakery, a snack shop, a restaurant, and several clubs. There are regular movies, a gym, a bowling alley and a library, an adult swimming pool and a family pool - a boat marina where you can rent boats, a yacht club for sailing, several beaches, scuba gear, deep sea fishing, sail boarding, kayak rental and a lot of athletic stuff I normally wouldn’t pay attention to anyway. There is an air port, two commercial airlines come in regularly and military flights and helicopters.

And a chapel, shared by the Protestants and Catholics. There are two chaplains - we each have an office and share a secretary. There is also a large religious education building with classrooms, meeting rooms, a library. Only about 20% of the population is affiliated with either of the chaplaincies. 7th Day Adventists have a small group that meets at the elementary school.

I have a two-bedroom trailer, up at the north end of the island, about a ten minute bike ride from the office. Pleasant in good weather, seems very long when it rains - and it has rained six of the first seven days I’ve been here. It IS the rainy season. I have a dining area, kitchen, the two bedrooms, a bathroom (with a small washer and dryer) and an attached living room which runs about 2/3 the length of the house. It is right on the water - I sit in my front yard, at the edge of which is a sand road, and then the ocean. One of the loveliest sites on the island. It is air-conditioned. I have a bicycle, and the chaplaincy has a golf cart and a van, one of the few vehicles on the island.

The Protestants are a larger group and much better organized. The people I have met have been very welcoming, and very anxious for me to stay. I instinctively started asking people what they wanted, what we needed to do - and discovered that everyone was very surprised. Seems the previous priest was not oriented to involving other people, so without meaning to I seem to be shaking things up. School started on the 20th of August and many people were away until the last minute, so my 2nd weekend was a lot more interesting than my first. I also hope to re-start a weekly Mass on Roi Namur, which is a 20-minute plane flight away.

I have signed up for the class which is necessary to get my boat license, so I can rent boats and go out into the ocean, and I have also enrolled in a class to learn the Marshallese language. There is a fair amount of back and forth between Kwaj and Ebeye, there is an Ebeye choir that comes over once a month to sing at the Mass here, and I think it will be helpful to know at least something of the language.

So - here I am. I have been made to feel more than welcome, and there certainly seems to be a need. I’m not going to make any decisions soon, but when the Provincial asked if I could cover for the other Jesuit, he did say if I wanted to stay, that would be an option. It is an option I am surprisingly more open to than I would ever thought. You have to remember, that even though I had the Mass group in Lagos, and I did try to be available to folk, I was basically an administrator. This job means being a priest - helping people get closer to God, counseling, and certainly in an environment that is conducive to prayer. Relaxing, taking care of myself, getting enough recreation - these are not things I have been particularly good at.

So stay tuned for further developments. For the moment, I can be reached via email at

johnrsheehan@Yahoo.com.

I also have a US Army email address, but this is probably easier to remember and deal with.

Regular US mail - PO Box 1711, AP APO 96555.

Telephone - just remember the significant time difference between you and me before you start dialing. We are also a day before most of you.

Office - (805) 355- 2116
Residence (805) 355-4535
There you are - not as long as some of my previous epistles but not as much has happened. I’ll try to keep people posted as things evolve. Until then, or whenever, love and hugs and prayers all around.

Christmas 2003

Dear Friends and Family,

MERRY
CHRISTMAS!!!

I know, another Christmas letter - and I apologize. But there is news, and not everyone is on E-mail, and sometimes there are things that require print. So this will go out both print and email – and if you get two, so much for my vaunted efficiency.

I will engage in my usual chatty business in a minute but there are a couple of “Announcements” that deserve their own attention.

First - On December 27th, I will be taking my Final Vows in the Society of Jesus. For those of you who have been betting that this is just a passing phase, I really think it’s time to pay off. I have been in the Jesuits for 23 years, an ordained priest for 11 ½ and this is what they call “final incorporation” into the order. It usually happens sooner - but I’ve been busy. It IS appropriate to send presents - cash is preferred - and I’ll talk a little bit more about that at the very end. But there is more.

I came to Nigeria less than six months after I was ordained, and I have been here pretty steadily since. I have been a community Minister, Assistant to the Regional Superior (Socius - longest serving Socius in the history of the Region), the first Director of Development, the first Communications Coordinator, the first Regional Treasurer, and I am working on creating the archives. I have produced a monthly newsletter for over ten years, and have created more things that are now “traditions” than I want to list or you want to read about. I have started a weekly Mass group that runs to 180 people, and have helped prepare over 100 kids for First Communion and another smaller group for confirmations. I have baptized and married and held memorial services and done what I could to listen to and help people in various kinds of pain. I have introduced the Society of Jesus and its works to a wide segment of Nigeria, by preaching and singing and being present in Nigerian activities. I created the Jesuit Alumni/ae of Nigeria (now over 300 members) and the Jesuit Associates program.

I have been a Rotarian - Secretary of the Victoria Island Rotary and Treasurer for the Lagos Rotary. I was Treasurer for the Nigerian Field Society and for Legacy, a conservation and preservation group. I have served on the membership committee of MUSON, the Musical Society of Nigeria, the Archdiocesan Music Commission, and was given a double chieftaincy title. I have emcee’d Small World for four years, a coming-together of 49 different women’s groups for one gala fund-raising evening. I am fairly well-known in this city of over 15 million people.

It has been a busy time. And at some point soon, it will come to an end. As Jesuits we are not supposed to be “attached,” and that goes for places and jobs as well as things. It is time to move on. I think so and my Superiors aren’t arguing. Before the next job, I have asked for a time off, sort of a mini-sabbatical, both to rest and relax, and also, if my next work will be in the U.S. then more time to re-inculturate myself to my home country. I can’t tell you a date, I can’t give you a location or what I will be doing - but my best guess would be it will be July or August, once the financial year has ended and I have closed the books. I am pretty sure I will get some serious vacation time - maybe six months. I might go to Kwajalein for part of that, some serious play and rest time, and then – who knows? There have been minor whispers about Guyana. (Once a missionary?) We’ll see if the job offers flood in. The announcement of my departure has not been made on this side yet, although I have told a couple of people, explaining why I would not accept an office or honor a request to do something. A more official note will probably come after the first of the year.

I will keep people informed - and my current email address (john.sheehan@sjnigeria-ghana.com) will forward mail after I leave for a while, but the AOL address will continue. (I have GOT to do something about those damn pop-up advertisements and the ones that appear as email. I do NOT need anything enlarged, I do NOT have a mortgage and I am NOT interested in subscribing to a webcam that runs 24 hours a day inside the shower room of a sorority. Sigh. There are some things about the US of A that I do NOT miss.)

That’s the big news. I have a new CD coming out in February, and I was hoping to do a couple of more during this year - we’ll have to see how THAT goes. I am going to be very busy preparing to leave - cleaning files and writing handover notes, trying to put on paper so many details and bits that I carry around in my head. It is going to be a very interesting year. Lots of things to throw out.

Not that the past year has been dull. Life in Nigeria is NEVER dull. I got back into singing again - after some time away I did a concert at MUSON as part of their annual festival, and it was (if a do say so myself) a tremendous success. I shared the stage with Maria Asseeva, a WONDERFUL Russian pianist, and we mixed the music - everything from parodies to arias, Scott Joplin to the Tchaikovsky Sonata. I am singing again in January, and now that I know I am leaving, I have two more tentatively penciled in - a $100 a ticket gala at Chevron, and then - how could I resist - Father John’s Farewell Concert. One night only, probably in late May. I want to get it in before the flood of expats leave for the summer. One more shot at fund-raising.

Olusegun Basorun of OgidilandSo that’s the BIG news. It has been a year. The Chieftaincy was great fun and continues to surprise me. I wear my bracelet all the time, and when I was first installed, I was surprised at how many Nigerians recognize this decoration for what it is. Sometimes they will ask me if I am a chief, and they are uniformly impressed when I say yes. Expats may joke about it, but Nigerians take it seriously, and they appreciate that I do too. You know me, I LOVE costumes.

For those of you who contributed in support of my chieftaincy, thank you. The money was to be used to help re-build the primary school in “my” village. I went to visit the village in September and took the first installment. They were delighted - no one has ever brought a gift like that to the village. I was able to talk about the beginning that my friends in the U.S. had provided and recently was given a gift by a group of Spanish ladies of N340,000 (around $2,270). I have an application in with another group - should get slightly more from them - and so even though the prices are rising and inflation continues to be critical, we are building and there is a whole feeling of hope. Several of the Muslim families are now sending their kids to the Catholic primary school - because the word is out, we are getting new buildings and new equipment and I have been talking with some businessmen about setting up a small foundation to help provide better salaries for the teachers. It all started with my friends in the U.S. - so thank you, both for what you have done and what you have inspired others to do.

That’s me. I was helping out at a local bazaar, and there was a caricaturist. No one knew what a caricature WAS, so I had him do one of me just to serve as a sample. Yes, it looks like me, but when I sent it to some friends via email, I noted that he had made me look a little Black. We see things through our own eyes. I have no idea where the shoes came from - I am usually in open sandals with no socks (I only wear socks for airplanes and formal receptions.) I have no shoes like that - although I would probably buy a pair if I came across them!

So there you are. If you are attacked by a sudden desire to send me money, remember you are sending it to the Society of Jesus. You can specify gifts. I would rather like to add a stone to my Paul Harris Fellow pin - that’s a gift of $1,000 to the Rotary Foundation, but you can give part of it and I can add it up. The school in Ogidi, my village, still needs more work - but so does our Jesuit run school here in Idimu. We have a small fund set up, so you can send a gift to the Cusimano Fund to help that school out. Or you can just send it to the Jesuits. Or you can wait and see where I end up - might even be a place that needs your help even more than here. Gifts go to: Fr. Tom Smith, 39 E. 83rd Street, New York, NY 10028, with a note indicating that it is for the work of Fr. John Sheehan, or for Fr. John’s school, or for the Cusimano Fund or the Rotary gift - or nothing.

But gifts are not necessary. It is nice if you say the odd prayer for us and the work we are trying to do. There are just over 100 Jesuits of the Nigeria and Ghana Region, and we - they - will soon become a Province. (Another party I’m going to miss.) Even if you don’t believe, say the prayer anyway. It may do more good than you know.

I certainly pray for you - individually and en masse (“Please God, remember my friends.”) I will keep you posted - but people on E-mail get more mail than those who wait for me to write a letter.

(More on the last page - turn over and keep going)



My contact information remains the same:

Mail - sent from anywhere but inside Nigeria, should be sent to me c/o 39 East 83rd Street, New York, NY 10028. We send a DHL pouch about twice a month.

Phones - unreliable and dicey but occasionally people surprise me.
234 (country) - 01 - Lagos and then
office - 773-3535
Mobile - 775-5630 (I carry it around with me)
Mobile - 0803-322-1943/

Email: john.sheehan@sjnigeria-ghana.com
or
Jredmond13@aol.com
or
Jredmond13@Yahoo.com (I don’t look at that one very often, but it is there)

Have a wonderful and a blessed Christmas and New Year, hug everyone who should be hugged - a highly underrated form of greeting and expressing affection - pray for the poor missionaries (hehe), and who knows, you might be coming face to a fuzzy face sooner than either of us thought. And as I travel around, it is ALWAYS appropriate to ask a priest to dinner, to come and visit, play a round of golf or sail on your boat or use your tickets to the opera or just sit and visit or - whatever. (See? I am already thinking vacation stuff.)

Love and hugs and prayers and stuff like that,

John (the wandering) Sheehan, SJ
Lagos, Nigeria

# 16 - Fr. John and the Talking Clock

Father John and the Talking Clock

Another adventure. Well, all of life is an adventure, but every now and then life condenses itself, so to speak, and you get more experience that usual crammed into time. Or maybe we just manage to look at the time differently. Whatever ‑ in early 1999 I was visiting the Irish Embassy and ran into this little nun, who asked me to do a retreat for her community. I pleaded a busy schedule but she said she was looking for something late in 2000 ‑ which seemed about six years away. She said he group was outside of Yola, and in a moment of I don't know WHAT I was thinking of, I said okay. Now part of my sudden agreeability was that I was thinking Yaba ‑ whichis about ten minutes drive from our house. She, of course, had said, Yola ‑ which is about six miles beyond Hell and Gone, on the road to Kano. Not exactly the end of the earth ‑ but you cansee it from here.

Suddenly ‑ much more quickly than I would have thought possible ‑ the calendar was saying October, and I realized that on 3rd November I would have to bundle myself up and head off to give a retreat. I inquired and was told that the plane flew at 10:45 in the morning, stopping first in Abuja and then going on to Yola. OK. Sent word to the Sisters in Zing ‑ which means you call another group of Sisters in Yola and they take the message and the next time the Carmelites come to town they get the message.

Carmelites are a cloistered order ‑ this batch anyway ‑ except for those who do the necessaryoutside work to keep things going, the bulk of the sisters remain in the cloister, in silence, doing the work necessary to keep things running but for the most part, devoting their lives to prayer. St Theresa, the Little Flower, was a Carmelite, and if you don't know anything about her, there is a wonderful biography of her by Dorothy Day that is worth looking up. If you don't know who Dorothy Day is, shame on you, you now have two women you need to learn more about.

The Sheehans have been involved with Carmelites since the turn of the last century. A group moved into Schenectady and my grandfather and grandmother helped them get the house where they live and did some of the remodeling. My father was very close to them ‑ sang in their church for special occasions, and used to boast that he was one of only three men who were actually allowed inside the cloister ‑ the Bishop, the doctor and the plumber. (He was the plumber.) I was taken to visit the sisters when I was very small, and was actually allowed inside the cloister. My mother says she can remember hearing my boy soprano voice coming through the grillwork that separated the sisters from the outside world, singing "How Much Is That Doggy In the Window" for the pleasure of the nuns. Okay ‑ they didn't have a lot of entertainment. But I really was a pretty good boy soprano. I visited those Sisters when I was on my way into the Novitiate and when I was ordained ‑ I had the great pleasure of celebrating Mass for them and staying overnight in a separate room they have for visiting priests. And there are some wonderful Carmelites in Toronto (although that batch isn't cloistered, they are teaching and running a school.) that I also got very close to. So coming to the Carmelite house here was a sort of homecoming.

Remember that I said they had told me the flight was at 10:45? Well, when I went to buy my ticket, I was told the flight was at 2PM. Thank you very much. Tried to call the other sisters in Yola to leave a message but no answer. (Turned out they had left for the week to attend a meeting in Jos.) Got to the airport with my 2PM ticket to learn that the flight would leave at 2:30. Hmm. Those of you who have been following my life in Nigeria narratives can probably guess the next bit ‑ Yup, the 2:30 flight finally left at 4:20. Remember too, this was not a flight going directly to Yola, first we went to Abuja, then to Yola ‑ so it was 6:30 (and dark) when we got to Yola.

There were two sisters there to meet me, but the general rule of thumb is, unless it is absolutely life and death, you don't travel at night. In fact, the Bishops of the two adjoining dioceses here have issued an order to their priests and nuns, that they are NOT allowed to travel after dark. A young Carmelite priest was killed not too long ago by armed robbers because he had gotten delayed and was trying to get home after dark. So we were not going to go to Yola that night. We went to the house of the sisters who were away and settled in. There is no electricity in this part of the country. Been out for a couple of months and there is no end in sight. Seems there was a power outage and during the time the NEPA was out, thieves came in and stole miles of cable (for the copper inside) and one whole section, the equivalent of a state, is without power.

So no power, no water (because even if there is water, there is no way to pump it up) and really hot. The sisters had brought water, and some canned and snack food so we had something to eat and ‑ well, not much to do at that point but go to bed. And sweat.

We were up before five, because we wanted to get on the road by six so we could get to the convent before the scheduled 7:30 Mass ‑ which I was supposed to celebrate, all things being equal. Cooler in the morning ‑ roads empty, and in better shape than the roads in Lagos.( I've seen battlefields in better shape than some of the roads in Lagos. But you knew that.) Got to the convent before Mass, so Father dropped his bags, slipped into an Alb and Stole and Chasuble and tried to think of something enlightening to say about the saint of the day or the readings. I don't think I was terribly successful in that, but on the other hand, I don't think I particularly disgraced myself either.

Now for those of you who went through the tales of Father John in Russia, you know I am given to describing gastrononomic dimensions of my adventures whenever they occur. However, when I am giving a retreat, it is usually my custom to fast during the retreat, and offer that up for the people making the retreat. It's an admission that I probably need all the help I can get. So there won't be much in the way of menus in this narrative. I did have breakfast with the Sisters – in silence, of course. Brown bread to die for, more in the Irish than in the Russian tradition, and a hot porridge made of ground nuts, soya and something else, that was fantastic! When I come off the fast, I hope there is some of THAT around.

And the first talk. Carmelites live most of their lives in silence, so I didn't have to do my usual encouragement for silence during the retreat. But we were sitting in the community room, waiting for the last one or two to arrive, and suddenly this very mechanical voice erupts ‑ it in now ten Oh one AM. Seems the nuns in silence have a clock that talks. I got the giggles and one of the sisters hurriedly took the clock away. Haven't seen or heard it since. I have this image of a clock sitting in a dark closet with a gag across its little mechanical mouth.

We are outside of Zing, in a deserted area, with mountains on all sides and desert in between,. Not Sahara sand desert, but arid, with occasional bushes. The rainy season has ended here, and the rivers are already almost completely dry and smaller streams and brooks are completely gone. The air is very dry, which is lovely, and at night it gets cool, which is also lovely, and there is often a breeze which is a help. There is a separate house for priests about a two minute walk away from the sisters, very nice ‑ and if there were electricity it would be even nicer. The house is built for electricity ‑ I mean, there are plugs and fans and even a fridge. They have a generator – which isn't working, of course ‑ and a small emergency gen which they run occasionally to help cool down the fridges ‑ and I can plug in my computer for a re‑charge. But at night it's candles and kerosine lanterns.

There are 11 on retreat ‑ six Irish sisters and five Nigerians who are still in the early stages of their religious life. The convent was founded several years by the then Bishop of this diocese, guy named (I kid you not) Sheehan. He is now Bishop of Kano and a good friend. Looks remarkably like the photos of my grandfather Sheehan (who died in 1924) but we have found no linkage anywhere in our known ancestry.

On the way over for the first afternoon conference, I heard music being played outside the walls. (I confess, at first I thought it was goats and someone blowing a whistle, to keep the goats together ‑ but eventually I figured out it was music.) I got to the church and from the top step was able to see over the wall. The first thing I saw was a young man, by himself, walking along with his ear to a radio. I couldn't really see the radio, but I caught a glimpse of the antenna reflecting the sunlight. About 50 yards behind him was a group of musicians, perhaps six. A couple of drums, someone with a bell (or two), someone with a block and of course, the guy with the whistle. I give him the benefit of the doubt. To my ears it sounded rather like what happens when a young child takes a plastic recorder and starts to blow and fingers the holes randomly. However, ears more delicately tuned than mine may well find melodic structure and pattern in there.

And behind it all, the gentle roar of a petrol generator struggling to keep the fridges chilled..

The compound is built on a hill, so everything is up and down. Rooms on two sides of large garden, with concrete walkways connecting everything, and then another parallel compound in the same arrangement. The cells (that's what they call rooms for monks and contemplative sisters) are mostly in one block, while the other has the community room, the workshop where they make hosts, the laundry room, kitchen and refectory, a couple of administrative offices. At the bottom of the compound is the chapel ‑ L‑shaped, with the Sisters in one side, separated by metal grillwork, and on the other side space for externs. The altar is in the corner, so it can be seen by both groups. There is actually space for as many as 21 Sisters, looking to the future.

Between the last conference and supper, the Sisters had Evening Prayer. My intention was to sit out in the garden and read for a bit. My access into and out of the compound is through the chapel, so when the sisters are praying, I can't really move through. So I went out and sat on the concrete steps by one section of the garden. Problem. I had volunteered to fast during the retreat. The local mosquito population had made no such decision, and apparently the word had gotten out ‑ FRESH MEAT!! I walked around for a bit, watched the beginnings of sunset and the mountains all around. Harmattan is just starting ‑ the annual dust storms ‑ so the farthest away mountains are seen through the harmattan haze. But still lovely. Eventually, however, the mosquitos discovered my new locations and I finally retreated into the dining room.

Where there was light! They had connected the lights to the gen, and were charging the re‑chargeables but also had other lights on. So for about thirty minutes I did get some reading done. Then they turned the gen off, and used the portable lights for supper.

The clever among you may be asking why, if I am fasting, I go to the meals. I play tapes during the meals for the sisters, sometimes music and sometimes talks. It adds another whole dimension to fasting as well ‑ seeing and smelling without actually tasting. So far, the food looks great.

Unlike the Jesuit Fathers, who have a staff almost as big as the whole Carmelite community, they have no staff here and do everything themselves. To watch the meals be served and cleaned is a delight. Everyone is taking care of everyone else. Some items, like being cook, are scheduled. Other dimensions may be as the spirit moves or there may be a schedule, I haven't figured that out yet. There are two long tables, facing each other, with a serving table and walking around space in between. Food is brought out to the serving tables. After grace, one or two sisters pass the food around, serving the others. No word is spoken. No one asks for anything ‑ but occasionally, during the meal, someone will notice someone is lacking something and serves. But they serve everyone each time. The same kind of routine appears at the end of the meal. Someone, by schedule or instinct I do not know, grabs two plastic containers and collects silverware and scraps. Another passes around with a tray for cups and glasses, and plates and bowls, which have been stacked, are likewise collected and brought together for washing. Very smooth, everyone taking their turn, serving and being served. Very nice.

After supper, back to my quiet little house. And let me tell you, it is quiet. You look out over the valley, and I can probably see 40 or 50 miles ‑ and the only light is an occasional flicker from a fire. No electricity means no radios, no loudspeakers (thank you, God!), no television. The nearest phone is a forty minute drive back toward Yola. No email.

The sisters have given me a rechargeable fluorescent, in addition to the kerosine lantern and candles. Good news and bad news ‑ the light is good. It attracts bugs. As I write this there are perhaps 150 small creatures that look a little like a large flea crawling all over the light. Every now and then I stop and kill the ones on the outside of the fixture ‑ the ones on the inside are on their own. When I go to bed, I will slather myself with bug repellant and see if I can get away without using the mosquito net. The netting works, but as it keeps the bugs out it also keep the heat in. Another trade‑off.

Don't panic ‑ this is not going to turn into another Russian missive. For one thing, there isn't the time ‑ I am only here for ten days. And once the basics have been covered ‑ what goes on, what the place looks like ‑ there aren't usually too many humorous anecdotes connected with a group of people engaged in prayer and silence. If there are, I think it might be questioned if I were doing a good job as a retreat director. I can't even regale you with the traditional menu updates.

Monday ‑ 6th of November. Yesterday was Sunday, which meant more of the locals joined us for morning Mass, so I had Carmelites to me right and locals to me left. There were perhaps twenty of them including a bunch of small children, one wearing a NY Giants t‑shirt and matching shorts. I quickly re‑vamped my homily to include them, and ended up with a much better talk than I had originally planned on giving. I only later discovered that most of the adults probably didn't speak any English.

The rest of the day followed the schedule ‑ people who live in cloistered communities are very good about schedules. I am still working on the retreat. I arrived and unpacked to find that a book that is crucial ‑ I had forgotten. It's a book of guided meditations that I use at the end of many of the talks. Fortunately they had a copy in their library. Unfortunately it's not the same edition, so none of the page numbers I had carefully jotted down have any relationship to the talks, so I have to re‑do all of those. I also forgot to bring one CD for music and decided not to bring another set of tapes, and I should have. So I'm juggling some aspects of the retreat. I usually give a long guided meditation during a retreat like this, but in a community of contemplatives, I've decided to skip it. Today is the first day I am available for private consultation with the sisters, so I can start to get a sense of how things are going. I might put it back in.

They're all very concerned about my fasting. And given my stomach/acid thingy, I am paying attention. The thing is, after a couple of days your system shuts down and you stop producing the acid, so it should be okay. That's why, when you end a fast, you end gently, not jumping right into a large banquet ‑ because your system is in no shape to handle it. You start gently, let your system turn things back on, and then you can proceed. Your stomach has also contracted, and your capacity doesn't match your appetite. Based on previous fasts, today and tomorrow will be the tough days.

I got smart last night, and sprayed the fluorescent light with bug spray, so any little creatures that arrived, died without my direct intervention. However, the mosquitoes got me again, and my ankles are a mass of bites.

Lovely breeze this morning. Sky looks like rain, but I know that's a harmattan cloud, not water. I hope the harmattan doesn't kick up and make it hard to get out.

In my free time I am reading the Constitutions and about the Constitutions, and also starting to prepare for the adult discussion group on the 21st. Christmas Facts and Legends is the theme, and so I am going through Ray Brown's book, the Birth of the Messiah. He's written a whole (long) book on the Infancy narratives ‑ and they only appear in Luke and Matthew. And interestingly enough, many things in one don't appear in the other. Probably the best book on this subject there is, so I am going through it again to refresh my memory. More than anybody wants to know about the Infancy Narratives, but I will pick and choose.

Daily Schedule ‑ Mass at 7:30, followed by breakfast. I'm usually back at my little house by 9, and the first conference is at 10. I'm available for consultation from 10 to 11, and in the dining room for lunch at 12:30. I'm available for consultation from 2 to 3 and 3 to 4, and the second conference is at 4:30. Supper at 6:30 ‑ and the day is over. It gets dark up here by 6:15, so by the time I head back to my house, it is truly dark. Half moon on the increase, so there is light outside (I carry my trusty pocket flashlight). Fire up the fluorescent, do some reading, a little writing, prepare the notes and materials for the next day ‑ by 9 pm I'm ready for bed. Yes, children, Father John is actually getting nine hours sleep a night. Well, he's in bed nine hours. Not all of that is sleep. You need more sleep when you fast ‑ at least I do. And I have certainly been getting some interesting dreams. (Which are NOT part of this narrative.)

I feel like I've been here for a week, at least. Spent part of today looking at drainage and water runoff systems. They have done some very clever things here, which I shall try to remember and copy for our house in Surulere. Today was the first day I was available for private consultation ‑ three slots, three people. I had asked, if possible, that the morning slot not be used unless necessary ‑ four of the six days were immediately filled in. Sigh. This is usually a rough day for fasting, and it turned out to be ‑ some slight dizziness, headache. I am taking salt in addition to copious amounts of water. Tomorrow everything should settle down. Getting cooler, as harmattan settles in. One of the Sisters told me there was a blanket in the closet ‑ I assured her I would love the chill.

Today was one of those interesting days when problems people talked about in the conferences emerged in the talks ‑ and the talks were all planned before ever I met anyone. The local parish priest stopped by to say hello ‑ an Irish Augustinian. His parish has 42 outstations. 42! Talk about the need for priests. Most are small, but transport up here is impossible, so an hour's walk about defines the boundary of a church.

Starting to feel at home ‑ NEPA off and on and off again today. This evening I was tired and feeling a little weak, and so was going to go to bed early. Then NEPA came, so we had lights, and it gave me new energy and I started in to do some work. Of course, fifteen minutes later it went out again, so I sighed and went to bed.

Tuesday, 7 November ‑ Election Day in the US. Of course, in a cloistered house, there is no radio, no newspapers, so it will be next week before I learn who won the election. Unless, of course we get a visitor. The Mercy Sisters from Yola drove over today, to bring the news of the death of a sister from a community where one of these nuns had lived previously. Although there was one Irish Carmelite community that is the founding house, so to speak, the original six came from all over. One from Scotland, one who is Irish but had spent her religious life in England. Two had extensive careers in other orders before entering Carmel. I haven't spoken privately with other members of the community so I don't know their stories yet, but I will. The spaces for signing up now have fifteen marks ‑ and there are still only 11 sisters. Maybe it's just the novelty of talking.

It's a different variation of the Carmelite life. My experience with cloistered Carmelites is that once you enter, you live and die within the monastery. You might be sent (or volunteer) to go and start another community, like here. But the expats here go back for a holiday every two years. They can stay part of the time with family, if they have any, and the rest with their original communities.

Did I mention that all the doors have either strips of wood or small rolls of material, like we would use in chilly climes, to help keep out the cold drafts? Here they use them to keep out the snakes. For the same reason, we are asked to keep the plugs in the sink and the shower, so crawly things don't come up the drain.

Wednesday, 8th of November ‑ Yesterday the community got news that one of the nuns in a community where Sr Catherine had been had died. A fairly well‑known Carmelite, if that's not a contradiction. ("Love, and be unknown.") So this morning we celebrated both the Feast of Blessed Elizabeth of the Holy Trinity and a special Mass for the repose of the soul of Sr. Theresa. A very nice service.

The nuns have a dog. Name of Monty. Very old dog, and while he does bark at strangers, his schedule is not strenuous. Moving into the shade when the sun shifts is about as far as he wants to go. But when one of the bells rings, he howls. Something about that particular bell sets him off and he raises his own voice ‑ we assume in prayer. He's a very high tenor or a soprano.

I'm at the end of my fifth day of fasting. Lots of water, lots of salt and a fair amount of temptation. But no food. I am ‑ as they say ‑ hungry.

They're burning the mountains tonight. The priest stopped by with some email I had promised to send for him, and he was explaining that this is something they do annually, to keep the growth down, and they use it for hunting. They kill the animals that the fire drives out and eat them. Of course, he said, every year there are some human casualties, people who get caught on the wrong side of the fire. Joking, I said, "I assume they don't eat them." Long pause. Then he said, "Well, you know up here blood is a favorite drink. Human blood. Out of a cup." And saying that, he tapped the back of his head. He meant, of course, a human skull for the cup. I am definitely NOT going out for any walks after supper. The population here is predominantly what we used to call pagan ‑ not Moslem, not Christian, but varieties of religions that used to bring forth anthropologists in droves. (Swarms? Herds? What do anthropologists travel in? I know, Jeeps.) But coming back to the house the fires can be seen very clearly, about six of them, and smaller lines of light connecting them.

Friday, November 10 ‑ So far, so good. I can't tell if I have lost any weight but I feel thinner. Still no solid food, although I have broken down a couple of times and had a mineral (soft drink). I eat salt and drink a whole lot of water and try not to stand up too quickly.

The retreat seems to be going well. The private conferences have been fascinating and some of the stories are fairly hair curling. One sister was told by her parents she would have to marry, even though she had said she wanted to enter religious life. She was the eldest daughter. She tried to resign herself to this. When she went to visit the young man (who had initially lied to her father, saying that they had discussed marriage and she had agreed), she was locked up and raped. Seems the tradition in his tribe is that the husband captures and rapes his bride, and then the marriage begins. Her family knew nothing of this. He wrote them to say she had decided to stay and he had arranged for her to continue her schooling there. After a month of repeated rapes, she became pregnant. After a while her parents found out but the man ‑ technically her husband, according to his tribal custom but no official ceremony had ever taken place ‑ refused to let her go. (I'm not quite sure why the father didn't simply shoot him, but different customs.) The baby was born, and when he was about three months old, she managed to escape to her parents. He showed up, but they refused to let her go. While the discussion was on about who would get the child, the child died, and he has not been seen since. There's more, but you get the idea.

When talking about the Last Supper, I had talked about some Jewish customs and used some Jewish prayers, so at the request of some of the sisters, I did a modified Shabbat service this evening before supper ‑ sang the blessings of the food and wine and the Kiddush. Very dramatic. The interesting thing is that with all the talking during the day and perhaps the fasting, the voice is stronger than it has been for a long time.

Tomorrow is the last full day of the retreat. Sunday morning I will have breakfast and then do the final conference. The Sisters are going to have recreation at the mid‑day meal, so they can talk and I can share the break time with them. The priest down the road has invited me for supper that night. In one sense I'd prefer to stay here but he doesn't get many visitors, and being a visitor means ‑ well, visiting. Monday morning I say the early Mass, have another breakfast and off to the airplane. Nigeria Airways again. I wonder if the grace of the retreat will make the plane fly on time.

The Last day of the retreat was fun. Sunday Mass, with some of the people from the surrounding villages, and then ‑ BREAKFAST!! Of course, after 8 days of no solid food, my little tummy had shrunk (Well, on the inside anyway) and so after a little porridge and two pieces brown bread and a cup of tea, I was stuffed. But the Sisters were all smiles and so happy to see me eating again. Me too. The last conference was very upbeat and positive, then the Prioress took me around and showed me some of the place I had not seen, especially their altar bread making factory, which is very interesting, and labor intensive. Lack of NEPA is the biggest problem ‑ and like everywhere else, when NEPA did come, it was so erratic it blew out several machines. So now they have the big generator (which it works) to run the equipment.

Did I mention that during the retreat the Sisters got a puppy? Not usually one of the graces associated with a retreat, but God works in mysterious ways. She's about a month old, and the community is vying for names ‑ some are calling her Sheba, several others want Grace. She woke me up on Sunday morning singing (about 4:30!), to which chorus Monty promptly joined in. Monty is going through some jealousy pangs ‑ but when she gets a little older his patience shall be rewarded.

Lunch was recreation for the Sisters, so talking was allowed. Father had a special plate, and by refusing second helpings and dessert managed to "clean my plate" without undue pain. The Prioress had asked me what my fee would be for this week ‑ I'm a Jesuit, and we have a thing called gratuity of ministry ‑ we don't charge for what we do. And I'm not in the retreat "business," I don't have a clue what the going rate for a preached retreat like this is. And, quite honestly, no one does it quite like I do ‑ special music, coordinated with the talks, meal time talks, things like that ‑ and this is a poor and somewhat struggling community. So what I finally told Sister was that she should pay for my plane fare (at least I shouldn't lose money), and give me a loaf of their home‑baked brown bread, the recipe for the ground nut porridge, and let me go around with Sister Celine and take cutting from some of their lovely plants for our garden in Lagos. She didn't think that was enough, so I added that I had ordered some vestments and two albs ‑ let them throw in one of the albs as part of my stipend. Seemed fair to her, so we spit on our hands and shook. So after lunch, Sr. Celine and I went around and took cuttings, which she will keep in water overnight, and after breakfast wrap in something moist and then something waterproof. I have extra room in my suitcase, so I'll take them back to Lagos and add to the beauty of our garden.

After that I was exhausted. Read a little, and then Fr Michael Walsh, the Augustinian who has appeared earlier in this narrative showed up to take me to supper. We weren't going to his place, but rather to another parish a little ways away. Dirt roads most of the trek ‑ low mountains all around, really quite lovely. Very few cars on the road, most people trekking, most holding their "good" shoes in their hands and walking barefoot along the gravel road. They put the shoes on when they get to the church or the house or wherever they're headed.

I asked where most of them were going, since there seemed to be a lot of traffic, and Michael explained that there is a Sunday Market ‑ mostly beer selling ‑ and when we got to the market itself, it was packed and very joyful. Beer drinking is part of the tribal culture and taken very seriously. One reason why this region is so heavily Catholic. Muslims don't drink alcohol, and the predominant Protestant group is Methodist, and a group that also disapproves of drinking. So when the missionaries first came, local culture immediately turned to the Catholics ‑ who drink.

Fr. Paul is the parish priest at the little church, and we had dinner with him. He has one of the oldest and best cooks in the Region ‑ this guy has been working for the priests for about 40 years, not always in the same house but going from rectory to rector. Paul has one main church and 67 outstations. He's the Bishop's nephew ‑ usually that would mean he was the (you should pardon the expression) fair‑haired boy, but the Bishop here (recently appointed Archbishop for Jos) is very good and legitimate and so all it meant was that Paul was barred from a number of offices. Which is fine with him ‑ he is much more interested in teaching and being a working priest than sitting in a chancery office.

He is of the Kona tribe, and toward the end of the evening got talking about some of the Kona traditions. His family, for instance, are the guardians of a sacred statue in the tribe, over 400 years old, passed on from generation to generation, and when the boys are initiated, the history and lore of the statue are explained to them. Some are higher in the family than others, so Paul did not get the full history, only parts. Apparently the statue was carved as an image of the ancestors, the founders of the tribe, and so even when they are gone, they can look on the statue and have a link to their founder. There have been copies made, in case the original gets stolen, but it is a case of great pride and honor for the family to keep this statue safe. There are other items like it with other families, and together they hold the Kona tradition.

When the chief dies, it is kept secret. His head is cut off, and taken to a secret place where all the heads of the kinds are kept, and this is their chronology, again, going back for several hundred years. This is how they keep the record of who was king before or after who. The rest of the king is buried, and then the announcement is made that the king is dead. Paul said he has never seen the place, probably a cave deep in one of the surrounding mountains, where all the heads are kept.

An anthropologists dream, but as Paul said, it would probably have to be a Kona anthropologist for people to talk to him.

He was also very good about explaining the roots of some of the ethnic problems they have been having in this area. Now I assume that deep in your heart of hearts you are not really interested in the cultural clashes between the rajiv and the chamba tribes, with the Tiv taking both sides and in some cases having it end up Tiv fighting Tiv ‑ plus some mercenaries brought in from Benin Republic or Cameroon ‑ the Cameroon border is only a few miles away over some easily climbable mountains. I am told that mules are no longer available for a hundred miles around here, because they have all been commandeered to smuggle fuel out of Nigeria (where it is cheap) and into Cameroon (where the price is considerably higher). A poor man who can make one successful trip can make almost a year's pay.

Monday morning ‑ Mass, breakfast, everyone saying goodbye ‑ packed my brown bread and my cuttings into the suitcase, a small farewell in the driveway where Father John sang ‑ Surprise! ‑ and off to the plane. The 1 o'clock plane left around 2:30 ‑ another hour of needless waiting on the ground in Maiduguri (the intermediate stop) and I was home.

Lost ten pounds ‑ which will sneak back up once food in re‑introduced into the diet. But it was a lovely and restful time, I met some truly prayerful women (who will be praying for me) ‑ all in all,not a bad week.

As you know, I am a beggar for the Jesuits ‑ and in the months ahead I will be coming out to do some serious fund‑raising for the Jesuits. But ‑ if you are looking for good groups to give money to ‑ don't forget the Carmelites. The ones in Schenectady, the ones in Zing, or other monasteries near to you.

Okay ‑ end of mini‑missive. Love to you all. There may or may not be Christmas cards, but there will certainly be Christmas prayers.